Author: Jasinda Wilder
Genre: New Adult
Rating: 4.5 stars
Source: ARC provided by author
I wasn’t always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way.
Then, one stormy August night, he died, and the person I was died with him.
Colton didn’t teach me how to live. He didn’t heal the pain. He didn’t make it okay. He taught me how to hurt, how to not be okay, and, eventually, how to let go.
First up, we need to talk about the New Adult genre. Don’t get too used to me reviewing these books, goddamn, they are tough on the soul. When I started writing this review, I searched the internet for a good description of the genre and I found this site: NA Alley. On it, they describe NA as a transition between young adult and true adulthood. Typically the protagonist is 18-26 years old. I think Jasinda Wilder’s book, Falling Into You crosses this divide perfectly. The book starts off with Nell and Kyle at the tender age of 16…young love, first love, true love and eternal friendship. Their story is a beautiful story, full of hope and promise. Of course Ms. Wilder is going to let the other shoe drop…and when she does, it is muddy and broken and so fucking sad I’m not sure I have the proper words to describe it. Just know, you will cry, you will be moved, you will ache and this shit will linger with you…for days after you read it. You will feel as broken and battered as Nell does and that’s just the first fucking part of this tear jerker.
Time passes, physical wounds heal. The emotional wounds Nell suffered can’t heal because she doesn’t want them to. Truly tragic shit happened to her in her youth and for whatever reason, denial, confusion, youth, shitty parenting (yeah, I said that – both sets of parents are kinda’ shitty in this book in my opinion), what have you, Nell won’t let herself heal. Maybe she doesn’t know how, maybe she doesn’t want to learn how because learning how will force her to let go of her past. A past so full of promise and love, who wants to let go of that? There is some heady shit that goes on in this one…cutting, drinking, self loathing. It’s not easy to read but the journey this book takes you on is completely worth the pain. Enter Kyle’s older brother, Colton. This is where I have to question a little of the book. Nell and Kyle are literally life long best friends, born two days apart. They lived next door to each other their entire lives. Their families are close. I’m not certain I understand how Nell knows so little about her best friend/boyfriend/lover/confidant’s older brother. Colton left home when Kyle was 11 or 12 years old…he had to know some of what was going on with his family. Kyle was very smart and intuitive, he had to know the trouble Colton was having with his parents, shit like that bubbles over. Hell, my 11 year old knows when I blow my nose! I would also think Kyle would share his concerns with his best friend, Nell. So, when Nell and Colton encounter each other after many years apart, I’d like to think she knows more about him than just the passing, “I don’t think he and his parents get along well” kinda’ thing. Now, having said that…this little detail is NOT a deal breaker…just a curious observation. Read this book.
Colton sees into Nell’s soul. He recognizes it as a soul just as broken as his. Colton is tenacious, he is going to save Nell from herself, even if it destroys him in the process. That’s his attitude going into Nell. Little does he know, they will end up saving each other. It’s beautiful, it’s raw, it’s uninhibited and it’s real…so fucking real.
“You’re a lot of thing, Nell Hawthorne. You’re complex. You’re cute. You’re lovely. You’re funny. You’re strong. You’re beautiful.” She seems to be struggling with words…
Falling Into You is steeped in beautiful music. Ms. Wilder even includes a playlist at the end of the book. You know I’m going to love a story that incorporates music into its storyline…especially Mat Kearney music – I shared my Mat Kearney love with you guys a little while ago. That man can write the hell out of a song, seriously, listen to his words – he’s got a lot of shit to sort out and we are the lucky recipients of his process. In fact, as soon as I finish writing this review, I’m updating my phone to include a Falling Into You playlist…it’s that beautiful.
So Scandal, tell us about the sex…get to the good stuff why don’t you?!!? Yeah, don’t think for one second the genre NA means no sex. Not with Colton in the book it doesn’t! That man is sex just waiting to happen…a good hard fucking, bent over a couch, sex waiting to happen. Colton does things…delicious, scandalicious, spank your ass things…holy shit. I will say, because if I don’t, I know you guys will totally call me on it, there are some word choices in the sex scenes that I don’t love. You’ll see them, you know me well enough to know what I’m talking about! But as I said before, this is NOT a deal breaker…read the book.
I’m not just falling in love with you, Nell. I’m falling into you. You’re an ocean, and I’m falling in, drowning in the depths of who you are.
That’s all the insight I’m going to give you with this book. All I had going in was, there’s death and cutting…so now, that’s what you have too. I think that’s a fair heads up. Ms. Wilder blends the sex, the angst, the heartfelt emotions, the gut wrenching pain, the innocence, the loss, and the all consuming love into a perfectly blended journey that will leave you speechless. Read the book.
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